Why is it that I feel guilty about not blogging??? It's not like I've done tonnes of things that are really interesting and need to be shared with the blogosphere... it' just... I feel as though I have neglected my three readers by not telling them about how little I have done in the past few weeks.... if that makes sense.

Work has... of course... been dominating my waking hours... and has helped incredibly with my sleeping hours as well.  As anyone who has read my blog for a while will know I go through phases when I don't sleep so good.  The last bout of sleeplessness was before the merger with LLF and... since starting with them at the beginning of October.... I have stumbled into bed most nights by 11pm and snored my way through six... if not seven... hours of fabulous deep uninterrupted refreshing sleep. It's not at all like me... and no doubt once I have settled in to LLF the bouts of insomnia will return reminding me of normality.  Then again... maybe now that I'm being stretched mentally at work I might just carry on NEEDING to sleep and thus getting a good nights rest... if that makes sense.

I still appear to be the "Go To" girl... and I'm enjoying it.  I seem to be the person that people come to should they have a query in relation to any old files from The Firm prior to the merger... and generally I seem to have been able to get to the bottom of a queries and problems just by being familiar with the old file management system we used at The Firm and knowing my way around a pc.   I've bluffed it pretty well so far... I'm sure I'm going to be found out at some point....

Sharing a drink or two after work last week with colleagues from LLF was an eye-opening experience... mainly because it was great to see these very professional people letting their hair down (as we all know they do) and seeing them for the people they are rather than the "Accounts Executive" or "Business Excellence Officer" that we see around the office.  Refreshing to say the least...

Something that seems to have been a by-product of the merger has been a huge boost in confidence that I have had.  I don't know why... and I certainly wasn't aware that I needed it.... but I do feel quite invigorated.  Whether it's down to the way I am being treated professionally or whether it's down to things happening in my personal life I just don't know... but I'm sure as hell not about to question it....because I feel GREAT!!!

 I'm totally on a roll here but hell's teeth... Grey's Anatomy series finale.....

gotta go....

and I'm back... traumatised from all kinds of goings on in Greys... I can't decide which bit I cried at more... Yang's breakdown after being jilted at the alter... or poor... sad.... resigned to a life without Meredith.. Dr McDreamy.  If he needs a babe I can be there in a flash....

The men in my life are like buses... I don't hear from any of them for ages then two turn up together at the same time.. needless to say dinner was enjoyed at both "The Village" and the "Wet Wok" this month... and a lunch at the Lord Louis with old friends was an added bonus a well.  One of HB's friends who she used to go to primary school with  has found her again on Bebo and chatting... and then meeting and hanging out with his mother was fantastic.  To see my old friend so happy and content was marvellous and I'm not joking when I say that I'm sure it's her delightful new husband (who happens to be 8 years her junior) that has helped put the shit eating grin on her face.  Lunch was interrupted with copious wedding photos (married at the Bellagio in Vegas) and WOW is all I can say.... the most amazing wedding dress... rooms... hospitality... everything... that's how you do a wedding in Vegas.

Dinner dates ranged from the "ok... I think I want to go home now" to the "I'm having such a great time I don't want to go home".  I will see one of my dates a lot sooner than the other... and I sincerely wish it were the other way round....