 This evening HB attends her first party.. alone.. with a bunch of her friends and two wine coolers as her limit.... I'm meant to be relaxing like this..... However..... I'm not at all relaxed... I'm not at all happy... infact....
- Have I been able to relax at all this evening??? Not on your life....
- Am I sitting here fully dressed at 10.30 at night just in case I get a call from her asking me to come get her... Yes....
- Is there any chance she will call... Not a snowball in hells chance....
- Do I feel old???? Heck yes....
- Do I have every confidence in the parents who are keeping an eye on the kids on the party... Of course....
- Do I wish I was one of them... Heck Yes....
- Am I fighting the urge to text her to check she is ok and having a good time??? Yes...
- Am I failing miserably in attempting to relax.... Yes....
 Should I just go call her to set my mind at ease???? I'm not at all comfortable... in fact I'm downright uncomfortable... shes my little girl.. OK... so shes sensible.. shes serious... shes very mature... but shes still my little girl.. and no matter how cool she wants to be.... I just don't want her to grow up... not yet.... |
